When your ugly dribbles out

I want to have grace with myself more than I do.

Grief is so interesting because it pops up when you least expect it to.  In my case manifesting in confusion.

I play piano at church,  there were some changes to this mornings set and I found myself in the bathroom with tears and tender emotions.   Then of course I felt foolish.  I haven't made a huge announcement and the thought crossed my head that maybe I just look kind of nuts.  

However, my teammate went home and got the music for one of the songs that we didn't have music for and by the grace of God I was able to focus on his strength and sing from my heart.

Have grace with yourself, even when you feel foolish.   That's the only way you can get back up again instead of living in your pit of despair